Under pressure

Two years of grad school. Two years of research. And it all comes down to this month. My thesis defense is April 12. I still have to write part of it and revise all 60+ pages of it. Needless to say, I've been feeling quite overwhelmed lately. I've been procrastinating, writers-blocked and generally tense about not only finishing my thesis, but also trying to find a post-graduation job, work at my current job, prepare for graduation and keep up with my full-time course load. The pressure right now seems enormous and many times I have begun to lose perspective on the situation. Many times I wonder if I'll get through this next month without having a nervous breakdown.

At times like these, God seems to fall into the background. I stop focusing on the big picture - what's really important in life - and get caught up in the minutiae. It's almost like I'm telling God that I'm just too busy to deal with Him right now, and, in the process, I miss the point entirely because these are the times when I need God the most.

"Be still, and know that I am God." - Psalm 46:10 (NIV)